I've spent this month getting organized. I now have a really great cleaning routine and my home is looking better than ever. Clutter has been cleaned and unwanted items thrown away. I've managed to work through my home and really organize and problem solve some areas that have needed to be addressed since we moved in two years ago. That should be fabulous, and in another reality I would be feeling really great about the state of my personal environment, but as my home gets cleaner and more organized, clutter free and feng shui perfect, my overwhelming sense of guilt or conscience-stricken state by my delinquent behavior does not bode well for the clean state of my home.
I've got a classic problem. I'm not working on my thesis, I have writers block and I'm procrastinating. At this rate there just wont anything left to organize or clean while my research sits in piles on the dining room table begging for attention. Initially I thought I would be able to do my writing at home. I realize 30 days in what a fantasy this is. In the past few weeks I have dedicated more time to research, but have completed a fraction of what I initially thought I would be able to accomplish. When my best friend was writing her dissertation she reached a point she knew she would need a new game plan, this occurred while she was standing in her bathroom de grouting the shower tiles.
It's time to get out of the house and find a library! Easier said than done. There are a few mental and logistical stumbling blocks which need to be overcome. I will need two library's, one local and my school library. The university library is the best in terms of resources, but it's a pain in the ass to get to, driving or by public transportation. I've decided Sunday will be my university library day. Finding a local library is a bit trickier. I checked out a few and they just wont work for me. I have one more option, I just have to go check it out. Again, procrastination is rearing its ugly head. This as it turns out is an issue for many of my classmates as well. It turns out everyone is in the same boat having come to the realization home is not the utopia we all thought it would be for this project. It made me think about how many local libraries scattered in little towns across the country have been the go to place for countless students needing a productive environment to just sit down and get it done!
So here's to my classmates and all the other graduate students across the country feeling the guilt of September slip by, don't beat yourself up, just get out of the house!
