Goodbye 2011

Well here we all stand testament to completion of another year. This has been a momentous year for me on a personal level. I've struggled with every change that's occurred this year. Principle people in my life, who I see as a rock or anchor have left. My dad was the first to go and I'm still trying to adjust. I miss him every day, I still feel lost. Then there was a wave of retirements in my work life and those that moved on to do other things. I feel quite alone not seeing these folks in my everyday hustle and bustle. I came across a quote that pretty much sums it up, " Love your job, but never fall in love with your company because you never know when it stops loving you...." In the midst of all this leaving and never coming back and adjusting to new and really unpleasant changes, I have been blessed with a solid group of people who love me and have held my hand and told me over and over again that, "It is OK, just stand up, It's time to have courage."

In February I make the first of what I believe will be a succession of changes that I must have faith are for the better, but I am struggling, and continue to vacillate between apprehension and anticipation. A long time ago I watched a biographical movie about Robert Crumb. At that period, while filming, he was relocating from San Francisco to a small village in the south of France. At one point he is looking at his nearly empty house right before the move and states, " The die is caste, there's no turning back now." Oh I understand!

Yesterday I took a lovely evening kundalini class. Kundalini class always ends with this song. So I leave you till 2012 with this sweet message.

May the long time sun
shine upon you,
All love surround you,
and the pure light within you
Guide your way on.

Happy Holidays

In your light
In your light I learn how to love.
In your beauty, how to make poems.
You dance inside my chest,
where no one sees you,
but sometimes I do,
and that sight becomes this art.
Rumi

Good cheer and love to all.
Om Shanti, Shanti, Shanti

Stepping Stones

Sometimes in life in order to get where you want to go you have to take just one step at a time only. If you try to skip a few steps along the way you might not be successful in reaching your goal or making your destination. That's where I am at this moment, one step at a time. I've passed the point of impatience. I've reached indifference. I know I'm on the right path and I'm not turning around. There are no more obstacles in my way, or I should say, I don't view anything as an obstacle at this point. With each step I find more peace and I'm able to let go. Yeah, its all good!
Wishing everyone non attachment and sweet surrender in your pursuits.