Meditation

 

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Lately I have been doing a lot of things I love.  Morning yoga on the beach, taking time to enjoy life with my loved ones and feel the goodness in everything around me.  As I unwind and heal my soul, spirit, and body from this previous year I am so thankful to be given this opportunity, so grateful I had the brains to make the decision I did, and forgive also myself for not taking it sooner.   It is a bit unnerving to see the damage done and know the amount of time it will take to repair mentally as well as physically.  I'm quite focused on moving forward and dumping out the toxic events that surrounded my day to day existence for the past ten months.  This is much easier said than done.  Each day I as I sit in yoga It know I will need to do much much more. I am going to need to start a personal daily meditation.   This is going to take some work.  Whenever I did a little mediation this past year either at home or int he studio I would instantly fall asleep.  Too much stress. I also have the problem of monkey mind, which is no fun at all.  I jump, jump, jump from subject to subject in my head.  Year, some thought is needed as to how I'm going to accomplish this.  It seems so easy, sit back relax and think of noting.  Seems so easy but SO difficult!  

Reflection

I'm at a critical juncture in my life and I need to make some decisions and move forward. I've cast my net, made some attempts, had some failures, and have had to come back to the drawing board to revise and create now possibilities while licking my wounds. This is hard stuff and slow going. I'm not sure which road to go down, and I need to consider all aspects and choose wisely. I think its time for more mediation and reflection.

Yoga has taught me the power and healing nature of meditation. The meditative aspect of the practice has become increasingly more important to me through the years. I have found that in meditation I find answers and I'm able to let go of thoughts that are holding me down. I am amazed how often I have entered a yoga class in a cloudy uncertain head space and somehow managed to work through to a resolution, or at the very least found relief by the end of class. It was not always like this. When I first started practicing I was unable to sit or even lay down for any length of time. The class would enter shavasana and I would roll up my mat and head for the door. I am unable today to simply sit and clear my mind and move into a sustained mindless (yes that's what it's called) practice. I need some yoga first, and then I use a mindful program which may include chanting and lots of breath work . My Kundalini classes have been fantastic in helping me develop a meditative practice.

Learning to Meditate is a very nice site with a good selection of guided audio meditations.

Wishing everyone well and peaceful days.